My Euwy

Although his energy drains mine
From all the running, skipping..the unstoppable playing,
His laughter and glow drowns my weariness,
His youth and beauty, all too priceless.

Although he won't obey all the time,
And would tire himself crying for something he can't have..
His droopy eyes, and sincerest apologies..
Heals me. Soothes me. Surprises me.
And I begin to wonder again how he get to be so tiny and so witty.

And although I wasn't prepared when he came to my life,
And that I have learned so little, so fast..
I am forever thankful to have been given,
The most beautiful.
The smartest.
The sweetest.
The most active, and amazing.
My heart, my soul and my life..
My Angel, my gift and my life's biggest surprise..

Blended Dreams and Frosted Wishes

Tiny glimmering spots, held on my palms
The sun has shone again, its blaze, cold and calm.
Waiting for the night to fall under,
So another yesterday will be over.

I still get the ugly dreams at sleep, and even when I'm awake.

So I get up and pour myself more coffee..
Out of the shivering storm inside me,
And off to the thoughts ever so cloudy..
I sometimes wish you were farther away, from me.

I light up a cig and pretend to breathe weakly
Delaying the heart beat, pushing the thin air far away, from me.
Getting so used to it,
Trying as much to outrun it.

And then I crash, and somehow you are not as felt as before.
This is not the way I wished for.