When I was at the peak of my drinking, I couldn't imagine a week without alcohol. I loved booze too much. I had so much fun. I enjoyed being drunk and never really hated hangovers. I was a smoker, too. Drinking and smoking were a perfect match. Until I got pregnant. Thanks to Biology, my body willingly adjusted and cooperated with the changes and breaking of habits. I suddenly hated the smell of cigarette and no longer craved for bitter sweet treats. I had a very important goal- keep myself healthy for my baby. And I succeeded.
Today, I have a new goal. I want to look and feel good. In order to accomplish that, I have to start by living healthy. I am not yet obese. I maybe a little overweight. I am not overly fat. In fact, some say I'm in good shape. But I am feeling heavy these past few months. I've gained weight after giving birth. After half a year of single parenthood, I was able to lose weight. Now that my little boy can actually walk and play on his own, my job has been made slightly easier. So lately, I've spent my wee time on food and internet. Because of that, I am getting fat.
Last night, I decided to deal with an issue I haven't been paying attention to. I've been so caught up feeling lonely and hopeless that I haven't seriously taken time to examine how my bulges seemed to have thickened every day as I watch myself on the mirror. So I did, and it was my wake up call.
Now I have to break another habit, and this time, for myself. I want to consider this as another way to move on and start over. And I decided to it gradually. First, I'm going to cut on carbs. So for breakfast today, I lessen my rice-intake. At lunch, I only had maybe two tablespoons of rice, chicken and mostly veggies. For dinner, I had three tablespoons of rice, some meat and some slices of potatoes. I have to stay on track.
Tomorrow, I plan to do a weigh-in. And that should be my starting mark. Hopefully, I can keep up with this as I did when I was breaking habits for the love of my son. I can do this!
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