My mom's golden rule is to never envy. So every time I become so human and envious thoughts play in my head, I remember how my mom would raise one of her brows, and stress on this evil and very deadly sin. And somehow it never failed to help.
But I will have to make an exception today. Today is my envy day. This is a day I am not supposed to feel guilty about peeking at someone else's happiness while cringing in jealousy and displeasure. This has got to be the day.
This afternoon, my eyes started to itch and suddenly went watery after seeing my sister's boyfriend ease the cut on her finger. It was just so sweet. I also saw a status on facebook that sent me waves of envy. I've seen pictures, happy faces, hopeful smiles and love-filled eyes. And I'm not there.
Tonight, I will also have to forgive myself. I know this day will pass, and that other days like this will still come. But I will be stronger. I will be better. And I will try harder to remember the golden rule of my mother.
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